i Cant stop.
Thinking and thinking, pictuers in my head, words, sounds, pictuers tick tick ticking over in my mined.
When i close my eyes and go to sleep, everytime i look at pictuers everytime i hear a song.
Its hard to get out of bed when you have no will.
Eating seems a chore and breathing starts to get harder.
Hes the most perfect thing.
But sometimes...not the right thing.
Time, place, feeling, thought, picture...tick tick tick.
"Most likeley to become an actoress.
Not if i cant get out of bed.
Get out of the house.
I cant do it
by
my
self...
and i wish i was her, and i wish i was him, here, there anywere but this bed, this crack... this "town".
And "wish you were here"someone was here.
Someone who dosent fuzz into the blur of day and afternoon morning night...Not him though, he is perfect and here...sometimes....but its not his fault, hes listning to the plans that will kill our world.
Superheros...
"Just a bump"
"just a scratch"
"I was too busy..."
I would say...
"i slipped"
"im clumbsy"
"im not very balenced"
Biteing my fingers as a bubble of blood suddentley slips through my flesh and it now sitting very neatley on my skin. it skips up my arm and nessels its self into the cracks of my elbow.
"You must stop doing that"
I cant stand the nights because i have nobody to talk to.
And so i think more.
And i dont want to talk to him, because he worrys, and crys, and there really is no need!
But i do want to talk to him, The other him, because he handles things diffrentley than anyone i have ever spoken to.But i cant, because things get messed up, because He; and this is the first he, makes thing messy because...because...because...there really is no corse for concern.
Cross my heart and hope to...